Untold Story

There are too much unspeakable words to describe what kind of life i’ve been through.

It makes all the noises turns into tranquility,
It makes the tears hesitate to show its spark,
It makes something unseen to be seen.

No one could know how it looks,
No one could know how it could be happen,
No one willing to know how does it feel.

There are the actors,
They trying to convey something implicitly.
There are the audiences,
They know, feel and see something they want to see..

Anggur Kehidupan

Aku mabuk karena anggur kesadaranku,
Aku tidak biasa karenanya,
Layaknya berada dalam ruang hampa yang berputar mengelilingiku,
Aku tidak bisa meraih apapun.

Ohh, kembalikan ketidaksadaranku..
biar aku meraih apa yang hatiku ingin raih,
biar aku pergi kemanapun hatiku ingin pergi,
biar aku berlabuh dimanapun aku ingin berlabuh.

Mengapa begitu sulit untuk menggenggam kehidupan,
Tuhan.. benarkah kau ciptakan kehidupan ini sesulit yg umatMu pikir?
atau mungkin umatMu lah yang membuatnya sulit.
Tuhan Tuhan Tuhan, dimanakah DiriMu..

Berikan aku anggur yang lebih kuat,
biarkan aku mabuk karenanya,
biarkan ia mengalir dalam urat darahku,
biarkan aku bebas dari semua keterikatan yg menyiksa.

Aku..
Aku..
Mencintaimu...
.....
.....
dengan darahku..

I Dreamed a Dream

There was a time when love was blind,
And the world was a song,
And the song was exciting,
There was a time and it all went wrong.

I dreamed a dream in time gone by, When hope was high and life worth living.
I dreamed that love would never die, I dreamed that God would be forgiving.

Then I was young and unafraid, and dreams were made and used and wasted.
There was no ransom to be paid, No song unsung, no wine untasted.

But the tigers come at night with their voices soft as thunder.
As they turn your hope apart, As they turn your dreams to shame.

And still I dream he’d come to me, That we would live the years together.
But there are dreams that cannot be, and there are storms we cannot weather.

I had a dream my life would be so different from the hell I’m living.
So different now from what it seemed,
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

taken from Les Miserables' song lyrics